Tuesday, January 31, 2006
shit.you think i'm so happy, but i'm not.it's just a show.some people think i don't have problems.fine.if that's what they want to think it's fine.tangina.hehe.sorry.
i curse to stop the crying..coz..i dunno..it helps me..i guess to focus more on being mad than being sad and pathetic.it's effective anyway.but i still hate it when i cry.i feel so..i dunno..i just hate it.
luv reg
Friday, January 27, 2006
right?i can't be the one who always sacrifices for them!and it seems as if they don't even notice my sacrifices..all i'm doing for them.i used to be such a pleaser.i'll do anything they ask me.just so they'll be happy.but it's not making me happy.not to sound so selfish or bad, but isn't it wrong that i do all the pleasing and they do none?why did i have to be the pleaser?why am i like that?okay.so maybe they deserve to be pleased because they encountered such hardships.but..hello?call me selfish.i can't please all of them.well, okay. i can. but it's not fair!
luv reg
Thursday, January 26, 2006
i wasn't always such a sucker in school.i have no idea why i started getting these low, low scores.in elementary, i had these uber cool scores.then i started high school.
okay, so that's where the cursing, loitering, bad girl started.and that's where the bad grades started.look.. i try, okay? and having grandparents that tell you you were smarter before or thye keep wondering out loud where my brain has gone to doesn't HELP at all!i'm trying!i really am!can't they see it?can't they just feel it?
it doesn't mean that if my grades suck, i suck too.well..okay.so maybe i suck but grades don't measure what we really learn.fine, it's a cliche but i strongly believe in it.
xregx
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
my twin is having trouble with a "fag".. it's bad when someone copies you..but i think it's even worse when she isn't actually copying you..but you started doing something a long time even before she does..
something happened like that..and i think i'm so conceited..wait.i'm so selfish!i'm the first to admit..i'm a selfish whore!i have no right to "patent" something but i'm so "maarte" and sensitive.i can't help it if i feel that way..even though i know i sound so completely stupid and shitty, it's just the way it is.
reg
all right..i really am starting to hate her!!!okay..you don't know her.we-ell..people at school know her.but i don't think they know that i know her..lol..but i HATE her!!! i really DO! she's such a flirt!a flirt a flirt a flirt! she thinks she's so pretty..she thinks she's the most gorgeous girl there ever was..but she's wrong!i hate her so much!!!sory for penting up the anger.this blog is mainly for surveys..coz i'm addicted to surveys.
better entry next time.swear.
xregx
whoa..i finally have a blogspot blog!lol
